Sunday, July 24, 2011

On the bright side :)

Kyle left this morning (4AM) for training on the East Coast. Upon completion of the 7 weeks of training, he will then deploy. It was hard saying goodbye to him, mostly because of the fact that we're saying goodbye to the life we've created here together. I'm excited for him to be with his buddies, and to be doing something he enjoys. I am hanging in there, and am almost used to the idea of him being gone for 90% of the year, for the next few years. I know it's what's best for us and I will continue to support him.

We had a lot to do this past week. My birthday was great, and we spent it in SF roaming, shopping, and eating. It was nice to spend quality time together. We took about ten minutes to take a few pictures. We were so rushed, we didn't get many. I convinced him to wear his uniform, and the only one that fit were his Cammies. About five minutes into our mini-photo sesh....his arms were turning blue. He was about to pull a Hulk and bust out of his blouse.

I'm not going on the cruise anymore. We're attempting to get a refund, and I have changed the flights from FL to CA. I leave Thursday morning for home. I will be scrambling to get the house in order, and cancel everything that needs to be cancelled. I'm just ready to get back there. Lots of distractions and things to do! PLUS I have a ton of workout buddies. Time to job hunt!


Wednesday, July 20, 2011

It's official...

We received word today that 'K' will be leaving this weekend. It's a lot to take on emotionally in a week, but I can do this. I know this is what's best for us. 
I know this is what's best for him. 

(just precious.)


I'm trying to look on the bright side. I'm trying to remind myself that soon it will pay off. He'll be happier. He'll feel that he has a place again. This is what he's wanted to do for so long. Whoops...forgot about me. What do I want to be happy? What should I be doing? I wish I knew those answers. To be honest, I feel like I'm attempting to crawl out of a deep dark the sand.

4 days left with him. It doesn't seem long enough. I'm full of un-answered questions. Will I see him before he leaves, or will I have to wait for him to get back in the states again? Where will he be going, and is it safe? Obviously not, if they need him. I don't know much, and what I do know I won't be posting on the Internet for their safety. I will tell you though, It is far from where we are now. 

Deployment mode has kicked in. My YouTube account is being taken over by sappy ol' love songs.
 The quotes, the pictures, the thoughts.....I've got this. It's just a year....for now. 315 days. 

I admire 'K' for having such a desire to make a difference in this world. He was born to protect. I know this is where he belongs, and as much as I wish I could keep him in a bubble....I know God has his back. I will put my faith in him, and trust he will help keep them safe and bring them home to me. All of those men are important to me, and 'K' is my world

(This was posted on their wall last deployment.)


I supposed it's time for me to start planning things I'm going to do while he's gone. 

It is now 2:03 AM. Tomorrow morning at 11 I am scheduled for a massage. A very sweet co-worker purchased a massage at a local spa for my birthday. (It's on Thursday.) I suppose I should get ready for bed, and allow myself to sleep. I don't do that much anymore, and the bags under my eyes are starting to be proof of that.


Saturday, July 16, 2011

I know it's been a while but...

A lot has been happening. I haven't had time to write a blog, and my mind has been all over the place.
I feel like I can't focus on anything.
Let me give you a quick update...I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense. I'm tryin here!

For the last year Kyle has debated applying for a position with a private contracting company. We know he's danced around the idea of re-enlisting, and we know he's kicked himself in the butt for not taking the opportunities that were handed to him while he was still in the Marines....WELL, he's been invited (and has accepted) a position with a very reputable company. The kicker is, he leaves next week to begin his training. His paperwork is processing, and they're submitting his paperwork for his Secret as long as that goes well and things continue as they have been, I'll be moving back home. (cheers!)

I'm not going to give details on dates, or where he'll be...but just know it's soon and far.
 (Out of the Country far.)

I know I know, just when we thought I was in the clear...siiigh

He's really excited, and I'm happy for him. Please pray everything goes well.
Please pray that I'll find the strength to get through this. I think I'm coming to accept this, and am hoping I'll find a way to adjust to that lifestyle again. 9 months out of the year he will be out of the country, and it continues that way until he chooses to separate from the company. (it's a never ending deployment haha!)
I know I'll miss him, but I love him too much to not let him take this great opportunity.
We will have our time, but for now I'll let him have his.

Before he leaves, his dad is going to take pictures of us. I've convinced him to take SOME in his uniform. He agreed as long as I didn't post any online, and only used them for our home. WELL I won't put them on Facebook, but I'll share some on here. He'll be in his cammies since NONE of his other uniforms fit him. Such a scrawny little guy he is ;)

We're planning on taking them on my Birthday (which is on Thursday.)

Bitter sweet feelings this week. Everything will be okay.


Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Find meaning in the storm...

I don't believe in horoscopes, though sometimes they're fun to read. I think it seems a bit funny to allow something somebody has pre-written for everybody, to tell you how your day is going to go. On Facebook though, I'm subscribed to something called "God wants you to know..." and it's daily encouragement.

'At times everyone goes through trials and tribulations. Seek out someone else in a similar situation and give them an encouragement or just a hug. Find meaning in the midst of your struggles by helping another in similar straits. '
I will do just that.
: )


Sunday, July 3, 2011

Staying Motivated!! (Ten pounds!)

Okay, SO...

I Weighed myself this morning.

I am down 3 pounds. Holy crap. That means I have 7 pounds until I get to my 10 pound goal before the cruise. I'm so excited!! I'm feeling great, motivated, and I'm ready to kill it in the gym.

Yesterday we were looking up details for our cruise.

We're ready!

Flights paid for - check
Cruise paid for - check
Birth Certificates ready to prove our citizship - check
Bodies ready to tan - CHECK!!!

It's going to be such a nice trip, and after our cruise we come home and leave right away for Sturgis. That's more Kyles thing...but I'm along for the ride. For the ones who don't know, Sturgis is a HUGE biker rally in the Black Hills (In South Dakota). It's gorgeous there, and THOUSANDS of people gather for the rally. There are huge campsites, Drunk Buses that shuttle people back and forth, and fair food everywhere. Women dress in barely any clothing, and I act like I'm a biker girl for a few days. (We all know the truth.)

here are a few pictures from last year!

last year I was in shock...
I've never experienced anything like that. lol
A lot of Naked girls, pasteys, Foul language, thongs and booty shorts, biker gangs, and people dressed in barely nothing with their kids in tow. It's quite classy, really. Kyle, his parents, and his grandparents used to go all of the time. His grandpa passed a few years ago, so it's special for him to keep up the tradition. His grandpa was quite the character!! You should see some of HIS pictures...Hilarious.

It's a lot of fun, but i'm going to be so tired at the end of those two weeks! So much traveling, and being out in the sunshine! Not to mention, I'll be broke! lol I have a surprise for Kyle that I've been planning....I can't give details yet because I'm not sure if he'll read this. I know he loves surprises, and I've only given him one clue so far: It's tan. The possibilies are endless, but let's just say he wouldn't expect me to pull this off.
I can't wait to see his reaction!!

Sales are everywhere this weekend, So I'm going to check out the online shopping and see if I can cause some damage!! I hope everybody is having a great weekend, and hope you have great plans for your 4th! It's a day to celebrate!

I work 7 - 3, then we're heading to the lake (2 hours away) to go tubing, Gonna BBQ, Shoot out at the farm, and Head out to watch fireworks. : )

Lots of pictures to follow!
Until then,