Friday, April 22, 2011

technical issues....

For some reason I can't login to my blog from my home computer....soo strange!! ANYWHO-

I got into it with my manager....I finally decided to stand up for myself after I came to work, and had a mean nasty note waiting for me. I wish I could just quit, but with all of my time requested off....I can't afford to chance finding an understanding work place.

*deep breath in...aaaaaaand out*

One day at a time. :)

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Welcome Home!

Today is full of emotion. 3/5 Marines are finally home! All of them. sighhh. During their deployment, they had lost a total of 24 very loved Marines, and had 174 wounded. Too many. 

Recently anything military related turns me into an emotional wreck. I have a special place in my heart for Marines, and I have spent a lot of time with the boys of 3/5. Although Kyle was with 3/7, A good friend of mine is married to a former 3/5 Marine, so many nights I spent with her....I spent surrounded by them. 

I had some pictures texted to me...Oh the tears! A friends daughter hugging her daddy so tight...the grip on those little hands...she didn't want to let go. (She doesn't have to!) Precious. Another Marine taking a knee next to one of his buddies who had been wounded while they were deployed...big smiles. Priceless. In the background of one of the pictures, a pregnant wife was glowing...she looked so peaceful. 

Welcome Home 3/5! I hope tonight is filled with home cooked meals, your babies in your arms, the tv turned to your favorite channel, hot showers, clean good smelling clothes, kisses and some lovin, peace and quiet, and beautiful smiles surrounding you (Or whatever it is that makes you happy!) 

My heart hurts for those 24 families who don't get to have that today. I'm sorry. I know I will never understand how that feels, but I will never forget the sacrifices. No amount of Thank You's and no words will take that pain away, just know I think of you each day. All of you, not just the 24 families...but the thousands of other families.

I hope I didn't offend anybody with this post, Just felt the need to express my feelings on this. If you google 3/5 H&S homecoming, there's a marine proposing right off the bus. OH how cute is that? I bet that was the best day of that sweet girls life yet! 


Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Strawberry Margarita.

Just got my hair cut and I love it. It actually looks the same BUT my horse tail is now transformed back to human hair lol.  While I was at the salon, the girl cutting my hair told me she is from California. That was pretty fun chit chatting about home and all of the things we miss.  I also picked up a pretty OPI Nail Polish.

Strawberry Margarita. Love it!

Last night Kyle had a meeting with the local Marines (truly THE FEW) in town. It was his first time going, and he came back so excited about everything. They have a lot of different fundraisers to help out disabled Veterans. I'm so glad he has this to keep him busy and allow him to spend some time with men he feels comfortable around. 

I really have nothing good to say today...It's rainy and boring in Casa D today! My best friend who's marrying in June, kicked one of her bratty bridesmaids out of her wedding. SO glad she finally did, it was way overdue. Kyle and I enjoyed the 80 degree weather yesterday!! Took Win-dog on a walk, and got a little bit of color! I made my favorite dinner too! Spaghetti Squash! YUMMMYYY!!!

He's working again tonight (boo!) Dinner for one! Hope everybody is having a great week!


Sunday, April 10, 2011

Keri Hilson - Pretty Girl Rock

I am obsessed with this song! Don't hate me 'cause I'm beautiful....lalala <3

I need a tissue for my issue.

These days all I do is work and sit at home like a big ol' bum (and that's what I've given myself.) When I went back home to visit a few weeks ago, I went shopping and bought all of this ADORABLE stuff, just to come back home and realize I have nowhere to where that stuff. I've been kind of in a rut lately when it comes to my self confidence. Poor Kyle, that's got to be annoying. LOL

I plan on making a list and completing everything on that list every week. First things first: GYM TIME needs to be a priority, not an option. I am just not a fan of those moments before you get to the gym. Once I'm there, I'm fine...but jeez- getting myself to actually get dressed and GO? End of my world...or you would THINK so...haha. I have a weight loss goal of 25 pounds, and I plan on giving updates. I started a new eating plan (that's my way of saying a diet.) I am SO jealous of those people who can eat whatever they want and not gain a pound. I gain five pounds just looking at a hamburger or something full of deliciousness and calories.

Bring on the salads! *undoes top button of pants*

I've also come to realize Alyssa (yes I'm speaking in third person) has a shopping addiction. It gets so bad that I have to add things to my online shopping cart so I'll feel better. On, they keep adding all of this cute spring clothes. I LOVE SPRING CLOTHES!! I love all of the pretty colors and floral patterns!

Let's take note that I have been living in negative degree weather for the first time in my life. The day I can get away with wearing sundresses and sandals, I will be!

Maybe I should clean out my jam-packed-FULL closet. Until then I'll admire it from afar....sighhhh


Friday, April 8, 2011

An update on our life....

Hereee I am!! It's time for an update on our life... :)

Since the last week in May, Kyle has been out of the Marine Corps. Boy oh boy, It hasbeen such a huge change of lifestyle for us both. I spent so much time worrying about him, and how his adjusting to civilian life would be...I forgot to worry about myself. I have thatproblem.

We took a road trip from 29 palms back to his hometown. 1605 miles of just Kyle and Alyssa time. It was pure sweetness, straight out of the honey jar. Hundreds of pictures later we were finally home....his home. It felt strange leaving him there, and flying back to California without him.

(he tracked my flight the whole

Almost 8 months...That's how long we have been here in this little house...In this small little town. Yep, I made the move. :)I couldn't be without seeing his sweet face everyday, knowing it was an option. It was the easiest decision I've ever made, and one of the best.

Prepare for complaining in 3...2.....1...

Life has taken over. Recently everything feels like it's out of control and I never thought I'd miss him being in the Marines, but sometimes I do. Life felt less complicated. I've had a harder time making friends here than I thought I would. I've never had a problem making friends, so I figured it'd be easy. I was wrong....big-time. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I grew up in Southern California. The Midwest is a different culture compared to home. Not bad, just different. Sometimes I feel guilty, because I feel like Kyle doesn't go out much with his buddies strictly because he knows I don't have the "girls night" option anymore. I wish I did. I love him for that. It's also been frustrating starting our life together, where everything is his. His friends. His family. His old schools. His old get the picture. Some of his friends weren't very accepting of me being here either...The female ones that is. That was to be expected, and it is what it is. I'm not here for them. :)

I know he's wishing we could start over somewhere new. His friendships are different now. After 4 and a half years of his life being dedicated to the Marines, he was so excited to be with his friends and family, and to have his old life back. I think in his head he pictured it being the way it was when he would go and visit on leave. I think that's the problem....nothing has changed. All of his friends are the same, and he is different. He and his MC buddies talk daily....they all miss each other. I wish I could find them all jobs and plop them in the same spot so they could feel normal again. Several of them have told me they don't feel like they have a place anymore. They shouldn't feel that way, but I know it's part of the "getting out" process. We plan on moving as soon as we finally get set with jobs and have enough money saved to do the move without going broke....whenever we do that, his friend has thrown out the idea of moving to the same city. I hope that happens, because I think it would make things a lot easier for them both. It will make me happy to see him happy. I want him to feel like he has a place again.

I miss California. I don't call it home anymore, because I've learned there is truth to that song by Lady Antebellum. Home is where the heart is. My heart is with him. If I could move my family, friends, malls, and favorite restaurants here- THEN life would be even more perfect. OH my gosh, i can't even tell you how much I miss my malls. LOL I say it like they're owned by me...

aaaaaand END of complaining. :) lol

He's been amazing. He always has been. It's such a comforting feeling knowing I have this man in my life, and he will be by my side for the rest of our forever, however long God wants that to be. I can't wait for the day we can say our I Do's, and the day we buy our first home, and the day we have our babies. Gosh, I don't think I could love another the way I love him. He's been my best friend since day 1. I keep teasing him about popping the question...poor guy. haha! No pressure right?

This post is a mile long, but after deleting all of my old posts...I think it's time for a clean slate. I need a hobby. This is going to be my hobby. :)