Hereee I am!! It's time for an update on our life... :)
Since the last week in May, Kyle has been out of the Marine Corps. Boy oh boy, It hasbeen such a huge change of lifestyle for us both. I spent so much time worrying about him, and how his adjusting to civilian life would be...I forgot to worry about myself. I have thatproblem.
We took a road trip from 29 palms back to his hometown. 1605 miles of just Kyle and Alyssa time. It was pure sweetness, straight out of the honey jar. Hundreds of pictures later we were finally home....his home. It felt strange leaving him there, and flying back to California without him.
(he tracked my flight the whole way...aw)
Almost 8 months...That's how long we have been here in this little house...In this small little town. Yep, I made the move. :)I couldn't be without seeing his sweet face everyday, knowing it was an option. It was the easiest decision I've ever made, and one of the best.
Prepare for complaining in 3...2.....1...
Life has taken over. Recently everything feels like it's out of control and I never thought I'd miss him being in the Marines, but sometimes I do. Life felt less complicated. I've had a harder time making friends here than I thought I would. I've never had a problem making friends, so I figured it'd be easy. I was wrong....big-time. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I grew up in Southern California. The Midwest is a different culture compared to home. Not bad, just different. Sometimes I feel guilty, because I feel like Kyle doesn't go out much with his buddies strictly because he knows I don't have the "girls night" option anymore. I wish I did. I love him for that. It's also been frustrating starting our life together, where everything is his. His friends. His family. His old schools. His old hangouts....you get the picture. Some of his friends weren't very accepting of me being here either...The female ones that is. That was to be expected, and it is what it is. I'm not here for them. :)
I know he's wishing we could start over somewhere new. His friendships are different now. After 4 and a half years of his life being dedicated to the Marines, he was so excited to be with his friends and family, and to have his old life back. I think in his head he pictured it being the way it was when he would go and visit on leave. I think that's the problem....nothing has changed. All of his friends are the same, and he is different. He and his MC buddies talk daily....they all miss each other. I wish I could find them all jobs and plop them in the same spot so they could feel normal again. Several of them have told me they don't feel like they have a place anymore. They shouldn't feel that way, but I know it's part of the "getting out" process. We plan on moving as soon as we finally get set with jobs and have enough money saved to do the move without going broke....whenever we do that, his friend has thrown out the idea of moving to the same city. I hope that happens, because I think it would make things a lot easier for them both. It will make me happy to see him happy. I want him to feel like he has a place again.
I miss California. I don't call it home anymore, because I've learned there is truth to that song by Lady Antebellum. Home is where the heart is. My heart is with him. If I could move my family, friends, malls, and favorite restaurants here- THEN life would be even more perfect. OH my gosh, i can't even tell you how much I miss my malls. LOL I say it like they're owned by me...
aaaaaand END of complaining. :) lol
He's been amazing. He always has been. It's such a comforting feeling knowing I have this man in my life, and he will be by my side for the rest of our forever, however long God wants that to be. I can't wait for the day we can say our I Do's, and the day we buy our first home, and the day we have our babies. Gosh, I don't think I could love another the way I love him. He's been my best friend since day 1. I keep teasing him about popping the question...poor guy. haha! No pressure right?
This post is a mile long, but after deleting all of my old posts...I think it's time for a clean slate. I need a hobby. This is going to be my hobby. :)