My What Ifs.....

I found this fun "What ifs" questionnaire on G.I. Joe's Wife blog. :) 

Just finished packing to head back home, and I'm wide awake. 

What if I were to get pregnant? It would be immaculate conception seeing as Kyle and I are hundreds of miles apart, BUT I would be happy. Though I'd like to get married first, things would just be a little bit out of order!

What if I could have any job in the world? I've thought about this, and honestly...I don't know. I'd love to get paid to travel, and I'd love to be a food critic! OR I'd love to do BOTH at the same time!

What if I had a day all to myself? I would find a way to enjoy it.

What if I could get married all over again? We're not married yet...SOOO I would LOVE to get married. A small romantic and sweet wedding is in my future.

What if I could live anywhere in the US? I know I should say anywhere with Kyle, but living in SD didn't work out for us haha....SOOO....This time lets try somewhere a bit closer to home and closer to a city.

What if I were to have more children? I don't have any yet :)

What if I could have any talent in the world? I'd be a money maker! I'd be a genius so I could make MILLIONS and Kyle would be home safe, and we'd be able to enjoy life without having to stress! 

What if you met me in real life? You'd probably like me. Okay, I just sounded really full of myself, but really. I'd like to consider myself easy to relate to, and I have a good sense of humor. I also talk A LOT, and sometimes I get way too excited about what I'm trying to say...I stutter!

What if I went back to school? Currently my life story. I go back in January...SO excited!

What if money weren't an object?  I know a lot of people who would be able to actually enjoy life.

What if I could meet one celebrity? I guess I don't really have somebody I obsess over...WAIT. I take that back. I'd love to meet Taylor Swift. LOVE her.

What if I could only shop at one store for the rest of my life? I just spent way too much time thinking about this answer haha. I'd have to say SUPER Target, so then I could buy clothing, groceries, household items, and soooo muuuuchhh more!

What if I could choose an animal/pet? First I want a kitty, then I'll get a doggy...BUT the doggy will come once Kyle is actually home for more than 3 months out of the year.

What if I could go on a trip right now? Technically I've been on one for the last few weeks. I'd fly myself to see Kyle. I sure would love to be next to him! I'd also go to Hawaii for some sunshine, and Europe to go shop (with the money I created....being a money maker and all...)

What if I had to choose between a house cleaner and professional chef? HOUSE CLEANER. Oh my gosh....PLEASE. Be my guest. Although, I'm not a horrible house cleaner...I'd rather spend my time cooking. :)

What if I had the option to get plastic surgery? I'd enhance ;) AFTER I have babies I will consider!

Goodnight

xoxo

Alyssa

Cooking Challenge/Planning Meals/Pinterest!

Before I go to bed I HAD to post a blog about this! 

Kyle and I have wasted SO MUCH FOOD and MONEY. We grocery shop, fill our fridge, and discover those purchased items weeks later when they're being thrown away to make room for our fresh groceries. Thinking about how much food has gone to waste just sickens me....SO I've come up with a plan.

While Kyle is gone, I'm going to be cooking/baking a new recipe each week. By the time he's back in the states and we have a home to call ours again, I will be quite the chef! I'm going to Plan our meals for the week, because it will eliminate us wasting money on food we don't need or eat. I'm going to freeze a couple of meals, for the nights we just don't feel up to cooking. I'm almost positive that this will be a nice treat for our wallets, tummies, and health! Frankly, I can't wait!!  During the process, I'm going to be blogging about my experiences with my cooking challenge.  I'll be posting TONS of recipes too!!  

I was so excited about this, I've even recruited my best friend. She is going to be attempting the cooking challenge with her husband. Way too much fun!! 

I've created a Pinterest account and hadn't used it until tonight. OBSESSED. I have SO many recipes pinned. Tomorrow I'm going to attempt one with my cousin Kelli. I'll letcha know how that goes!

If you don't have a Pinterest account, CREATE ONE. LOVE.

XOXO,

Alyssa

Did I mention.....

November is when I knew I'd love him for all my life?

Well, it's the truth.

It started in September, Blossomed into October, and by November we were inseparable. 

I remember our first November when he went home to visit his family for leave, and we spent HOURS on the phone. He even made his omelets mushroom free, because he knew I hated them. 

Aw, love is sweet.

It's so crazy how quickly time can pass us by. It's been years already? YEARS? 

(as in MORE than 1? MORE than 2?)

Well, isn't that sweet as can be.   :)

P.S.

11.11.11 is coming up. How awesome is that? For as long as I can remember, I made wishes at 11:11. Every wish has come true so far. You better believe that on 11.11.11 AT 11:11 I will be making worlds sweetest most epic wish. It should actually be declared 'Best wish day'! 

Happy November!

xoxo

Alyssa

Darling, Don't be afraid.

I will be brave.

I will not let anythingTake awayWhat's standing in front of meEvery breath,Every hour has come to this.
One step closer. I have died every day waiting for you.Darling, don't be afraidI have loved you for a thousand years. I will love you for a thousand more.

Hearing this song makes me feel all happy inside.

Recently, I've had a rough time accepting that soon I will be thousands of miles away from K. I earn the ribbon for worlds biggest worrier. I'll come out and tell ya, I'm scared. I hug longer, kiss more, and I make sure he knows what my heart is feeling. I have been fighting with my thoughts lately. I've never been this way, and I don't know if it's because I finally had a taste of what 'normal' could be like for us...but boy oh boy...I'lllll tell ya. I'm ready for this to be over, and it hasn't even begun.

He always jokes that I'm like a mother bear protecting my cub. I'd keep him in a bubble if I could. I love him for always being so brave, and standing up for what he believes is right. He's good at making himself useful. Wherever he is, people are quite lucky to be surrounded with his warm heart and kind spirit. He's good at what he does, and as difficult as it is for me...I'm attempting to learn to just let it be. This is what he was intended to do when God gave him life. He's here to protect, and he does a damn good job at it.

That boy turned my world around. He is another part of me, and I pray everyday God gives us many years to learn, grown, and love one another even more than we do now.

Enough of the sappy stuff....

listen to the song, and fall in love.

xoxo

Alyssa

Bell Pepper Salsa....aka Fabulousness!!

Ingredients:

1 Red bell pepper, 1 Yellow bell Pepper, 1 Orange bell pepper

1 Green pepper

1 Red Onion

3 Large Tomatoes

2 Cloves of Garlic

2 TBSP of Lime Juice

2 TBSP of white wine Vinegar

4 TBSP of Olive Oil

1 Jalapeno

2 TBSP of Sugar

A dash of Oregano

2 TBSP of fresh basil

Garlic Salt 

1 cup of Tomato Sauce

Chop all of the Ingredients and mix together!! Refrigerate and enjoy!!


*We decided to make brown rice and topped it off with some Tilapia and the yummy salsa!! Not long after dinner..I maaaaaay have had some more salsa with Tortilla chips. The flavor was AMAZING!! This was SO easy to make, and I plan on making HUGE batches full to put in Jars for the Holidays! :)


xoxo

SO it's been a while because...

SO much has happened!!

I'm not sure when the last time I've written on my blog, which is a little depressing. I'm back, and I'm here for an update on all that's gone on!!

Kyle flew to California 1 day after he graduated from his training program on the East Coast. We were together for two beautiful weeks, and then we had to say our dreaded 'see ya later'. It was more difficult than I had imagined. Of course you can probably guess....I was extremely emotional. It was quite pitiful actually. I know it's not forever, but I'm just anxious for us to finally be able to have a somewhat normal life. Normal Schedules, Normal city, Normal people, Friends, BBQ's, and a home just for us!

For the first few days we were staying in Dana Point at the Doubletree. Dana Point is one of our favorite spots, and it felt nice to be there together again. On our second day together, we had our photos taken!! These are the pictures I've been saying I wanted to be taken for MONTHS AND MONTHS!! 

Heres a preview!

 

:) Check out our photographers website when you get a chance!!

www.kristenbooth.net

Now that Kyle's gone, I'll have a lot more time to update here! I missed it!

Hope everybody is doing well!

xoxo

Alyssa

3 weeks and 2 days from now...maybe?

I will be able to wrap my arms around that hunk who stole my heart!

As of right now, we've got 3 days together before he deploys. We're keeping fingers crossed they allow them to have a little more time with their families, simply because we're just not ready to say good-bye.

I'm sure not ready.

We're going to have a photo shoot with a local photographer, so I'm on the hunt for a cute dress!!

wish me luck!!

xoxo

Alyssa

Missing that boy....

Being without him this time just stinks. It's worse than last time. Plain and simple. I miss our life, and having him there by my side. I know this is only temporary, but it feels like it's been years since I've seen him last. I don't know why all of a sudden I've turned into some big baby, but I sure hope I snap out of this soon.

xoxo

Alyssa

It's been a while...

I'm back in California with my family. The move went well, and all of our big stuff is in SD. We will be moving it in a handful of months, when he's home for his first real visit. That's when we will be setting up our lives here, again. Kyle is on the East Coast training, and will be back sometime in September. He'll have about a week off and then he deploys overseas, and will spend a total of 365 days in Country. (He does get some time in between to come home.) It stinks knowing we'll be living this way for years, and not just 1 deployment. I know we'll get through it, though. We had ourselves trained before on how to be long distance. We'll just be tapping into that experience, and hopefully time will slow down while he's home for those few short weeks. I certainly didn't think that we'd have this lifestyle again. After all, we did say goodbye to the Marines. He's loving this. He's happy. THAT is enough for me to hang in there.

(Cody and Kyle...Yup! he's sure having fun there!)

Since I've been home, I've spent a lot of time with my best friend Jill. Her husband is stationed in 29 palms, and even though that's where Kyle was stationed...I've never noticed the horrible gross awful insects. The bugs there are SO gross. Bless her little heart. I killed a few crunchy ones for her (compliments of her husbands shoes!) I've also spent many mornings with her new puppy, Marley Marles Barkley Jones. ;)

(Her after a walk!! She was POOPED out!)

It's nice to be home. I've decided this Beach-City girl

will NEVER be a small town girl. Why did I ever leave this place? :)

Hope everybody is doing well!

xoxo

Alyssa

On the bright side :)

Kyle left this morning (4AM) for training on the East Coast. Upon completion of the 7 weeks of training, he will then deploy. It was hard saying goodbye to him, mostly because of the fact that we're saying goodbye to the life we've created here together. I'm excited for him to be with his buddies, and to be doing something he enjoys. I am hanging in there, and am almost used to the idea of him being gone for 90% of the year, for the next few years. I know it's what's best for us and I will continue to support him.

We had a lot to do this past week. My birthday was great, and we spent it in SF roaming, shopping, and eating. It was nice to spend quality time together. We took about ten minutes to take a few pictures. We were so rushed, we didn't get many. I convinced him to wear his uniform, and the only one that fit were his Cammies. About five minutes into our mini-photo sesh....his arms were turning blue. He was about to pull a Hulk and bust out of his blouse.



I'm not going on the cruise anymore. We're attempting to get a refund, and I have changed the flights from FL to CA. I leave Thursday morning for home. I will be scrambling to get the house in order, and cancel everything that needs to be cancelled. I'm just ready to get back there. Lots of distractions and things to do! PLUS I have a ton of workout buddies. Time to job hunt!

xoxo

Alyssa

It's official...

We received word today that 'K' will be leaving this weekend. It's a lot to take on emotionally in a week, but I can do this. I know this is what's best for us. 

I know this is what's best for him. 

(just precious.)

I'm trying to look on the bright side. I'm trying to remind myself that soon it will pay off. He'll be happier. He'll feel that he has a place again. This is what he's wanted to do for so long. Whoops...forgot about me. What do I want to be happy? What should I be doing? I wish I knew those answers. To be honest, I feel like I'm attempting to crawl out of a deep dark hole....in the sand.

4 days left with him. It doesn't seem long enough. I'm full of un-answered questions. Will I see him before he leaves, or will I have to wait for him to get back in the states again? Where will he be going, and is it safe? Obviously not, if they need him. I don't know much, and what I do know I won't be posting on the Internet for their safety. I will tell you though, It is far from where we are now. 

Deployment mode has kicked in. My YouTube account is being taken over by sappy ol' love songs.

 The quotes, the pictures, the thoughts.....I've got this. It's just a year....for now. 315 days. 

I admire 'K' for having such a desire to make a difference in this world. He was born to protect. I know this is where he belongs, and as much as I wish I could keep him in a bubble....I know God has his back. I will put my faith in him, and trust he will help keep them safe and bring them home to me. All of those men are important to me, and 'K' is my world. 

(This was posted on their wall last deployment.)

                

I supposed it's time for me to start planning things I'm going to do while he's gone. 

It is now 2:03 AM. Tomorrow morning at 11 I am scheduled for a massage. A very sweet co-worker purchased a massage at a local spa for my birthday. (It's on Thursday.) I suppose I should get ready for bed, and allow myself to sleep. I don't do that much anymore, and the bags under my eyes are starting to be proof of that.

xoxo

Alyssa

I know it's been a while but...

A lot has been happening. I haven't had time to write a blog, and my mind has been all over the place.
I feel like I can't focus on anything.

Let me give you a quick update...I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense. I'm tryin here!

For the last year Kyle has debated applying for a position with a private contracting company. We know he's danced around the idea of re-enlisting, and we know he's kicked himself in the butt for not taking the opportunities that were handed to him while he was still in the Marines....WELL, he's been invited (and has accepted) a position with a very reputable company. The kicker is, he leaves next week to begin his training. His paperwork is processing, and they're submitting his paperwork for his Secret Clearance...so as long as that goes well and things continue as they have been, I'll be moving back home. (cheers!)

I'm not going to give details on dates, or where he'll be...but just know it's soon and far.

 (Out of the Country far.)

I know I know, just when we thought I was in the clear...siiigh

He's really excited, and I'm happy for him. Please pray everything goes well.
Please pray that I'll find the strength to get through this. I think I'm coming to accept this, and am hoping I'll find a way to adjust to that lifestyle again. 9 months out of the year he will be out of the country, and it continues that way until he chooses to separate from the company. (it's a never ending deployment haha!)
I know I'll miss him, but I love him too much to not let him take this great opportunity.
We will have our time, but for now I'll let him have his.

Before he leaves, his dad is going to take pictures of us. I've convinced him to take SOME in his uniform. He agreed as long as I didn't post any online, and only used them for our home. WELL I won't put them on Facebook, but I'll share some on here. He'll be in his cammies since NONE of his other uniforms fit him. Such a scrawny little guy he is ;)

We're planning on taking them on my Birthday (which is on Thursday.)


Bitter sweet feelings this week. Everything will be okay.

xoxo
Alyssa

Find meaning in the storm...

I don't believe in horoscopes, though sometimes they're fun to read. I think it seems a bit funny to allow something somebody has pre-written for everybody, to tell you how your day is going to go. On Facebook though, I'm subscribed to something called "God wants you to know..." and it's daily encouragement.

'At times everyone goes through trials and tribulations. Seek out someone else in a similar situation and give them an encouragement or just a hug. Find meaning in the midst of your struggles by helping another in similar straits. '

I will do just that.

: )

xoxo

Alyssa

Staying Motivated!! (Ten pounds!)

Okay, SO...

I Weighed myself this morning.

I am down 3 pounds. Holy crap. That means I have 7 pounds until I get to my 10 pound goal before the cruise. I'm so excited!! I'm feeling great, motivated, and I'm ready to kill it in the gym.

Yesterday we were looking up details for our cruise.

We're ready!

Flights paid for - check

Cruise paid for - check

Birth Certificates ready to prove our citizship - check

Bodies ready to tan - CHECK!!!

It's going to be such a nice trip, and after our cruise we come home and leave right away for Sturgis. That's more Kyles thing...but I'm along for the ride. For the ones who don't know, Sturgis is a HUGE biker rally in the Black Hills (In South Dakota). It's gorgeous there, and THOUSANDS of people gather for the rally. There are huge campsites, Drunk Buses that shuttle people back and forth, and fair food everywhere. Women dress in barely any clothing, and I act like I'm a biker girl for a few days. (We all know the truth.)

here are a few pictures from last year!

last year I was in shock...

I've never experienced anything like that. lol

A lot of Naked girls, pasteys, Foul language, thongs and booty shorts, biker gangs, and people dressed in barely nothing with their kids in tow. It's quite classy, really. Kyle, his parents, and his grandparents used to go all of the time. His grandpa passed a few years ago, so it's special for him to keep up the tradition. His grandpa was quite the character!! You should see some of HIS pictures...Hilarious.

It's a lot of fun, but i'm going to be so tired at the end of those two weeks! So much traveling, and being out in the sunshine! Not to mention, I'll be broke! lol I have a surprise for Kyle that I've been planning....I can't give details yet because I'm not sure if he'll read this. I know he loves surprises, and I've only given him one clue so far: It's tan. The possibilies are endless, but let's just say he wouldn't expect me to pull this off.

I can't wait to see his reaction!!

Sales are everywhere this weekend, So I'm going to check out the online shopping and see if I can cause some damage!! I hope everybody is having a great weekend, and hope you have great plans for your 4th! It's a day to celebrate!

I work 7 - 3, then we're heading to the lake (2 hours away) to go tubing, Gonna BBQ, Shoot out at the farm, and Head out to watch fireworks. : )

Lots of pictures to follow!

Until then,

xoxo

Alyssa

How to lose 10 pounds in 30 days! (or how NOT to.)

SO....

In 31 days we leave for our cruise and I have YET to lose those 10 pounds I said I was going to. I was literally Google-ing yesterday for ideas (while Kyle sat there, shaking his head.) HAHA How sad. I have this pudge I can't get rid of. OF COURSE it would just KILL me to spend another day in the gym, running.

BUT....don't you worry! 

I have a plan...

-I've started watching carefully what I eat. I have started using my Fitness-pal App on my phone again! I have a max of 1200 Calories per day, and yesterday I was pushing it...but I did it!

Today should be easier....I swear I have will power. (I've lost 30 pounds since January)

-I WILL be going to the gym today. It's not bad once I'm there. I even start to enjoy my workout.

It's just those moments before I think of how badly I don't want to be there.

-I'm going to start sleeping at a normal hour. 1 AM is not an appropriate bedtime for somebody trying to do the almost impossible.

-I have a jug I carry around filled with water. It holds 8 glasses of water in it. AT LEAST 3 of those per day.

- five minute ab work outs every night. It's not going to get tight by itself!

Hopefully I can tone and create a Miracle!

Moving on....

Kyle must have thought he was in trouble or something, because when I came home yesterday the lawn was mowed, the dishes were done, the house was vacuumed, laundry done, bathroom clean, kitchen clean, and everything looked nice and tidy. So sweet of him, but he sure wore himself out! He was awake for about 3 hours after I got home, then slept the rest of the night! lol

Today I'm working, but when I get off I think we might go to the pool for an hour or so. We need TANS!

OR

Kyles cousins needed a babysitter for their sweet baby boy, Connor. He's just the cutest cuddliest thing in this world! I've never actually seen Kyle hold a baby, so I might melt while in the process!

: )

 

What's the best thing I've heard lately?

A man at work was waiting about ten minutes for a luggage cart, and naturally I apologized for the inconvenience. He responded "If this is the worst thing to happen to me all day, then I'm doin alright!"

That's what i'm talkin about!



Life is good.
xoxo
Alyssa

Happy Wednesday!

Good Morning Everybody!!

While I'm at work, I've been in research mode. On the 16th of July, we're having a wedding shower for one of our employees who recently married his other half. She's from England, and is having a difficult time adjusting. I certainly know what that's like! I found out that she's Vegan, and though I love the idea of being Vegan and Vegetarian, it wouldn't happen for me. I love meat! I do want her to feel comfortable, and know we considered her. I think I'm going to make my famous Spaghetti Squash :) SO good, and 100% Vegan if I exclude the lean ground beef from my sauce! I'm not sure many of my Co-Workers will be willing to try it, but more for me! 

For anybody who's willing to try it, I'll post the recipe. It's easy, and healthy!

Ingredients you need:

1 Spaghetti Squash
1 Large can of whole Tomatoes
1 Medium sized can of Tomato Sauce (I buy two, Just in Case I feel it needs more.)
1 Medium sized can of Crushed Tomatoes
A hand full of Carrots (or Two Large Carrots)
2 Stalks of Celery
1 1/2 Bell peppers (Adds the sweetness to your sauce! Add to your liking)
Garlic Salt or Fresh Garlic
Ground Beef/Turkey (This isn't necessary)

Preheat Oven to 400 degrees
Slice Spaghetti Squash (horizontally) and scoop out seeds like you would a Pumpkin.
Place on cookie sheet (Open side up), and bake for about 45 minutes or until golden on top.

Once you've finished that step, pull out that Blender!!

Mix in the Large Can of Whole Tomatoes, Medium can of Crushed Tomatoes, and Medium can of Tomato Sauce. Smooth out, and add in Celery, Carrots, Bell peppers, and Garlic. Blend to a consistency of your liking, and add Garlic salt to taste.

After about ten spoon fulls off "tasting" your sauce, you can throw it in a sauce pan and heat it. If you choose to make your sauce meat sauce, Season and chop up to your liking. Just add it in!

Once your Spaghetti Squash is finished, and you let it cool for about five minutes. Take a fork and start scraping from top to bottom. You'll see it start to form the "spaghetti". Mix together and you are finished!!

I tried making this recipe fool proof, so if anybody is brave enough to try it- let me know how it turns out. : )
I make this a lot because it's delicious and very low in calories.


I've been searching for ideas for a headboard...I saw a while back somebody had used a Shelf, Long covered cushion, and hung it from the shelf. Looked cute, so I think I might attempt that!

I made a delish dinner for Kyle last night! Burgers, with Mushrooms sauteed in low-sodium soy sauce, and American Cheese melted on top. Sweet Potato fries, and Corn bread too! :) YUMMMM!!

Tonight Kyle is home : ) so I'm thinking what I'll make for dinner tonight. Any Suggestions?

Hope everybody is doing well!!

Xoxo
Alyssa

Marine Corps life, again? (and an update)

 

For those of you who have followed me for a while, you know it's been hard for K and I here in this town. For the ones who are just now following me, I'll clue you in quick!

I'm originnally from Southern California. I'm a beach/city girl...Coming to a small town was a culture shock! It was a difficult adjustment, but making friends seems to be as well.

K was born 2 hours from the town we live in, and moved here when he was 13. He lived here until he left for the Marines, then he was stationed in 29 Palms for the last 4 1/2 years. He's had a hard time feeling like he belongs here....his transition into civilian life has been quite difficult for the sweet boy.

At around 3 AM, Kyle woke me to tell me his news. He's decided to meet with the recruiters on Wednesday. He wants to explore his options. His first and top choice would be to get back into the Marines . He misses it, and I truly believe he was made to be a Marine. It's in his blood. He knows the odds aren't very good, because right now it seems like they're not taking anybody. I never pictured myself as a Military wife...I guess I'll have to learn. I'll support him no matter which direction he chooses to go.

 I'm just along for the ride! I hope things go his way, because I want him to find peace again.

You can tell he's on edge a lot of the time....

I'm going to have him call the recruiter tomorrow.

I'll give updates.

I've been dealing with work issues, as most of you know.

I've come to the conclusion these two are misserable with their own lives. I'm not in this town for the rest of my life, like they are. One is married and hates her husband. The other is single, and pushing her mid-late 30's. They're bitchy, controlling, Jealous, Immature, and neither one are very attractive.

THOSE are their good qualities.

I will no longer allow them to sit here and try to control my moods. You want to be a bitchy old hag?

Go right ahead. You want to try to bring me down, try harder. It's not working.

Life is too short. I could be gone tomorrow, God willing. I'm sorry they can't see how blessed they are, but that is not my problem. I will sit back and watch karma bite them in their big butts, and hope one day they turn their misserable pathetic lives around.




xoxo
Alyssa

and I'm back!

It felt strange not blogging the whole time I was back home, but I didn't have enough time to breathe!

I figured that I'd just give a quick summery of my time back in California....ahh, how I missed it!

On Thursday, as soon as I got off the plane, I met up with my momma! She cried as soon as she saw me and parked halfway in the lines-halfway in the lane! so funny! I rushed off to the Rehearsal. I was 30 minutes late, but when I finally arrived I was SO excited to see everybody. That night we went to the Rehearsal dinner, and I got to see my friend, Freddy. I haven't seen him since before he went to Afghanistan over a year ago!

Friday morning I was up early, rushing around getting things ready. I wanted my best friends day to be perfect. I arrived at the hotel with fresh fruit and Champagne in hand, and hurried to get pretty! Jill finally showed up after having her hair and makeup done- she looked beautiful.

The wedding night was so fun. It was perfect. We had such a fun group, and we literally danced the ENTIRE night. I was So sad to see it end!! Can't we rewind time?

The pretty Bride : )

All of us : )

Just married : )

:)

I couldn't have ever dreamt a more magical day for my best friend.

She is now in Hawaii with her Husband basking in the Sunshine. jeeealous!


xoxo
Alyssa

4 more sleeps until...

I get to go home!!!



 I'm going to have to take a million naps, because I know once I'm home

 I won't get much sleep.

Rehearsal and Rehearsal dinner will be happening as soon as I get off that plane!! THEN the wedding, Fathers day, and my baby cousins graduation. Somewhere in there, I've got to squeeze in time to go shopping, the beach, and spend time with family and friends.

I'm beyond ready and excited.

I thinnnk I'll celebrate by purchasing a new bikini. : )

Happy Sunday everybody!

xoxo

Alyssa

I deleted my blogpost...

Sometimes it just feels good to vent. I needed to vent, and despite the week I've had...I'm trying to turn it around. I was starting to sound like a big ol' depressed baby. I'm not...and I'm not going to dwell on things I can't change. I may not like certain people I work with, and I may not be able to change their actions or attitudes BUT I can control my own. I can control how I react to these things and people.

Soon we will be leaving this place. I don't know an exact date, but knowing it's not forever from now...that's good enough for me. We won't have a "normal" schedule, but at least I know when Kyle is gone, I'll have somebody to spend time with besides myself. I'll have family there, and more things to do, to occupy my time. I'll feel normal again. : )

Kyle has been wearing his Marine shirts around the house. Today it was his Unit shirt.....yesterday it was the Machine Gun Leader Course shirt....day before that was his "SGT of Marines" shirt. I think he misses the Marines, haha what do you think?

In two months he'll get to see his old roommate. They're more excited than Courtney and I! lol....They've been posting things about the cruise. It's cute!

SPEAKING OF THE CRUISE. I have two months (less than two months) to get this flabby tummy into semi-flatter-better shape. Gym will be a huge part of my days again....starting today. fml. I'm just not a good worker-outer when I'm alone. I have major A.D.D, and when I'm on a machine...You won't find me on there for longer than 20 minutes. I get bored....I wish I were a runner. I hate running. I could give you at LEAST ten reasons why. I'm not going to. I should just suck it up. LOL

I'm lazy. lets face it.

I hope one day when we have children, they get their fathers athleticism...otherwise, we're in trouble.

xoxo
Alyssa

Dear Mean girls..... [Scroll down to read the letter : )]

I know I've mentioned this before, but can I please just say

GIRLS ARE MEAN!

I will never understand why women find the need to constantly belittle one another. We're on the same side here. We're supposed to support each other, and respect one another. From the moment I've lived here, The girls I've met have been nothing but mean, disrespectful of my relationship with Kyle, bitchy, cold hearted, dramatic, and every other negative word in the dictionary. I've tried being nice, I've tried being talkative, being quiet....I've tried everything. Bitches are just bitches.

Now don't get me wrong, I've got some great girlfriends. I know a ton of wonderful and loving women, and am BLESSED to have them in my life. I just wish there were MORE like that.

I think when I moved here, people had the idea in their heads I'd be stuck up because of where I'm from. My birth place doesn't decide my personality. My actions and thoughts decide my personality. I make the choices to be the type of person I am, and if they want to spend that much time talking about me- I'm flattered. I must be that interesting that they want to spend their nights out with their girlfriends, talking about me. Last night one of them posted on Kyles FB wall that he was looking good and was spotted in the gym. I know he's pretty hunky, isn't he? I'm pretty lucky. Then another said she just wanted to see an old friend and put a winky face. Turns out, Kyle has met her once-shes engaged. Feel sorry for that guy!

For the last 9ish months I've kept my mouth shut, and I've been nice. I would give anything to write a mean nasty letter to these girls telling them what I think of them, and I'm not normally a verbal person about how I feel about someone. When I am, I watch my words hoping to choose the right ones. I don't like to cause problems, I'm not about "drama", and I've never been. I'm usually reserved with my feelings, unless I post it on my blog. LOL THEN I make it public, but it's become my place to vent. I vent to my best friends, or family. They are who I trust, and they love me regardless of a bad day or bad attitude. Maybe even a cuss word every once in a while is overlooked. I have decided to write a short version (maybe) of what I wish I could say. It might sound mean, but they've been mean. Two can play that game....yes, I'm immature at this exact moment. Stooping to their level...let me dang it!!

Dear Mean Girls,

I have never been one of you, so I will never understand your take on life, or why you make the choices you do. I have never been the kind to put others down, because I was always taught to consider others feelings. I'm not here to judge your parents, but I think you played hookie the day they were teaching a lesson on "How to have class" and  you obviously were snoozing during the repeated saying "treat others how you'd like to be treated." I don't understand your choices you make when it comes to your relationships with your Fiance/boyfriends. Talking about the men you'd like to be intimate with doesn't exactly qualify as dinner talk for the "D" household. I don't think Kyle would appreciate that, and I'm surprised that your S/O's don't mind either. I don't agree with cheating in a relationship, especially one you are choosing to make permanent. I'm not going to say you're ugly, because several of you are quite pretty. In fact, most of you are. Though, I'm not a fan of your cookie cutter outfits, you try so I'll give you that much.

Take note that looks fade, but being ugly on the inside lasts forever. Just because people talk about you in this small itty bitty town, doesn't mean you're important. If you're known as the mean girl (not just from my mouth), I don't think that's something to be proud of. When your own group of friends spend your spare time talking about each other and what you hate about the other...That's pretty sad. NOT the type of friendship I'd call true. When you make your "friends" cry on purpose....you've got to have pretty low self esteem. When you make it a point to get together and bash a happy healthy relationship like Kyle and I, that is how I know you're pathetic. I know you're attempting to cause problems, but that only works when there is trouble in paradise. We're happy, we're in love. He's faithful, sweet, sensitive to my feelings and needs, and doesn't like you. Without saying it, or me telling him to. I don't make his decisions for him, and that's something I love about him. He's independent and allows me to be. You should try that, instead of being the Hitler of your relationship. I'm sad for you though, because you will never understand what the real world feels like. You have technically been out of high school for 5 years, but your mindset is still stuck in your sophomore year. I pray that one day you'll grow up. I pray you'll realize being this way won't get you far, it'll only get you enemies and dirty looks. Just because people are nice to your face, doesn't mean you're cool. It doesn't mean they like you. People are nice, because they're scared of you. They're scared you'll embarrass them, insult them, hurt their feelings, or whatever else you're capable of doing. Now, I'm not going to lie and say you haven't hurt my feelings, because there have been times that my feelings were hurt. I've never had enemies like you, because I've always been a nice person.

I often question my reasoning's for living here, because it's been quite the ride....but Kyle reminds me. People around me, remind me. When I move on from this place, I take this lesson with me. My friend Lacey said it the best, "I do get called a bitch quite often, but what I do NOT get called is pushover, stupid, sucker, victim or doormat. Works for me!" You didn't win with me. You didn't break me. You didn't ruin us, or even cause problems in our relationship. You may have hurt my feelings a few times, but you have become a joke in my head. When I move on from here, you will remain here...forever. You may think you run Mitchell, but you'd get eaten alive anywhere else. I can certainly say, if I sent you to my hometown, you wouldn't be looked at twice. I know I should wish you well, and hope that you "see the light" or whatever....but I don't. I hope you get a taste of your own medicine, one day.

Sincerely,

Alyssa

xoxo

2 weeks and 2 days...

That's how long I've got until I get to go back to California.

Day one and two will be crazy! From the moment I step off the plane, I'll be on my way to the Wedding Rehearsal and Rehearsal dinner. The next day is the wedding, and then after that I'm going to be relaxing. Beach days and visiting my favorite people and places. A week just doesn't seem long enough. ALTHOUGH, Kyle won't be coming with me SO I don't think I'll have too much trouble going back to our home, to be with him.

: )

I have nothing else to say. My mind is blank this morning due to lack of sleep.

This girl *points to self* has insomnia. B A D.

xoxo

Alyssa

Recap from the weekend:

First let me start off with my black eye.

It got a little bit worse after this picture, but you get the point...

Basically Kyle was telling me that I was looking skinny (I've been on a never ending diet), and me being my normal self, had to go fishing for more compliments. I asked him WHERE he could tell.

"You look skinny here" *points to upper body*

"and here!" *points to mid section*

"AND HERE!" *bends over and points to legs*

at that moment I bent down to check out what he was talking about, and he decided our faces should meet. He flew up SO fast....The PAIN. OW OW OW OW. I had HUGE alligator tears and ended up laughing hysterically. It's getting better now...Not as swollen, but now it's purple....oh joy!

Friday:

Woke up early, and got on the road. Of course, I was a stress case before then. I can't ever relax before we go anywhere, always wondering if we've forgotten something. (we didn't.)

Made it to Omaha, had to make a quick trip to the mall (Kyles little cousin didn't pack anything for the concert. SO we had to find her an outfit.) Pigged out, then went back to the hotel and got ourselves ready!

Once we were in the Arena, We realized we weren't very far away!! We started talking to some guy that was wondering around, his name is Charlie Worsham. Turns out, He's one of Taylors Opening Acts. : )

He's such a nice guy, and I told him I'd spread the word about him! SO look him up.

He's on FB and Youtube. : )

Kyles mom bought an extra floor ticket, so Kyles dad could come along. She sat by herself (aw) and his dad sat with him. They were hilarious...Poor Dave. He made sure he had a beer in hand the whole show.

We had some teeny-boppers in from of us with signs. They were literally dancing before the Opening Acts even started. I guess you can say they didn't have many friends! lol THEN we had this guy in front of us too. Cool hair, huh? Kyle says it looks like a backwards skunk. He had it shaved down shorter on the side....

He was a character haha

We had the 2nd stage about ten feet away from us....

Mid show she changed stages, and I was so excited. Ah, I love her!!

She is amazing in concert. Sounds just like her albums, which is refreshing. She switched up some of her songs too, and created her own little remix. THEN when she was walking through the crowd, she kissed little girls on their cheeks and probably made their lives. So cute. I WILL be seeing her again.

Kyle and his girlfriend...

Saturday we woke up pretty early (HA! NOT!) and went to the Zoo! On the way there, we had to get some good ol' Starbucks. I got the Iced Chai tea with a dash of Vanilla....So yummy. : )

That evening we had dinner at Cheesecake Factory. Oh, I pigggggged out. So bad.

Sunday before we headed home, we stopped at a Memorial Park they have about five minutes from the Hotel. They've got a bunch of cool Military vehicles and Artifacts from different wars. It was right up Kyles alley, and he had such a good time. 

 

It was a nice little getaway. We both needed it, and even though we're both tired from constantly moving around....we're so happy we were able to go.

That is all : )

xoxo

Alyssa