One cup of Black Tea later....

wooohooo!!! I'm back an hour later to write my second post, but this one will be less complaining. I've been complaining quite a bit lately, and then the more I read other peoples posts about their struggles..The more I feel like a huge brat, because I DON'T have it as bad as others. I know everybody fights their own battles, and I certainly have my own....I just wish I could take away pain from people who deserve happiness. I guess if nothing bad ever happened, then we'd never know how truly special those wonderful happy moments are to us.

I can already feel the black tea kickin in....ahhh caffeine, you have become a close friend of mine!

(and of people around me in the mornings! haha)

 To make myself a little more clear, I'm not quite a morning person....I'm that person that could sleep until noon if it were allowed. I'm a night owl, which is funny because I don't ever go out.

I'm old enough to drink, and I don't even go to bars. I actually don't even drink...

Kyle and I are old people. We love staying home, or going to dinner and a movie, spending time with family, and just enjoying our nights relaxing. Recently since the weather has been decent, we've taken the Harley out for a few night rides. Who would have ever thought I'd be the girl on the back of a bad boys Harley? NOT ME. I also never thought I'd be the girl wanting a pink pistol.

If you haven't had a chance to shoot a gun, It's a must!! SO fun!!!

(This was OBVIOUSLY the week after he was free from the Marines...Check out that facial hair! ALSO please take note my ankle looks like I've got a weird deformity hahaha )

(Kyle, His Dad, and Uncle had WAY too much fun dressing me up!)

We also spend a lot of time Skyping with people we love and adore!! For instance: We have Thursday Skype nights with Cody & Courtney! (Except the last 2 weeks...work has consumed both couples!)

They're the ones I said we were going on that cruise with...You would love Courtney!! So cute, just the sweetest thing ever!! AND her accent...IT is THICKKK as heck, and precious. Kyle always teases her...he greets her the same every time, "HI COURT-NAYYY". She eats it up!! Love those two!! She's been a huge support system since I've been here, besides my family members (and sweet cousins!!) but i'll move onto them next!!!) I've had so many moments I just needed to cry, and sometimes I feel guilty crying to Ky....I'm emotional LOL I can cry a lot!! WHICH JUST REMINDED ME...it's Cry Sunday. Greeeeaaaaaatttt! That'll be my next topic AFTER my cousins!

 Anyways, I love my sweet little Courtney, and their new fur-baby, COPPER!!!

Moving on...

My Family is amazing. I've certainly been blessed in that department. I've become very close with my moms side of the family, and in recent years (and months) I've become particularly close to my second cousin, and her family. I just love them.

There have been so many times being here, I feel down. I spend quite a bit of time alone, because Kyle works nights. Being so close to family emotionally, I've never had to live so far from them before. I've had a hard time forming close friendships here with other females, so with them being in my life...It's really such a huge blessing!! I talk to them every week. They keep me sane.

My second cousin Kelli reminds me a lot of my mom.  Strong willed, Beautiful inside and out, hysterical, sensitive, sweet, caring, giving, determined, inspirational, a fighter...I could keep going. (Don't even get me on the subject of how they look like TWINS!) She's been struggling with her health recently, and I've been praying everyday for her.  I believe everything will start looking up! She deserves everything wonderful in life.

(Kelli & Chelsea, with their handsome husbands! Sorry Chels, I had to!)

Chelsea, is a little mini version of her mom. She's gorgeous. Just as sweet as can be, and has the most beautiful spirit. They make me laugh, and know what to say to keep me going. When Kyle and I move, we'll be living in the same state as them. Hopefully we'll get lucky, and be in or around the same city. THAT would be perfect!! We can't wait!! I can't wait!! Girl time, I can't wait for girl time!! I've missed being able to have those moments. Girls nights, lunch dates, mani-pedis, and shopping!! I'll finally have some partners in crime again!! NOW, if we could convince the rest of the females in the family to leave sunny California, thatttt would be peachy! My sister wouldn't ever leave...thumbs down!

I get to see them, when I go home in June for Mo's wedding. I'm excited to see everybody! My Mommy and Sister!! My baby brother, Aunts, Cousins, Uncles....EVERYBODY!! My friends included!! I can't wait to see Mo....I love good ol' Mo, and I miss being able to have access to her everyday, when I wanted her!! We used to have shopping dates, and spent countless hours and days laying out by the pool, eating subway, and becoming bronzed babes!

(The last time some of the girls in the family were together.  
We're a boring bunch.)

Definition of Cry Sunday: Army Wives and Coming home

These shows consume my life for two hours. Both hours are spent crying.

Like I said, I'm emotional. hahaha

I think this is the end of my mile long post. I've embarrassed enough people with my pictures, and now I'm going to continue working hard.....or I'm going to finish playing a new smart phone game I just downloaded.

WINNING!!!

xoxo

Alyssa

An update on our life....

Hereee I am!! It's time for an update on our life... :)

Since the last week in May, Kyle has been out of the Marine Corps. Boy oh boy, It hasbeen such a huge change of lifestyle for us both. I spent so much time worrying about him, and how his adjusting to civilian life would be...I forgot to worry about myself. I have thatproblem.

We took a road trip from 29 palms back to his hometown. 1605 miles of just Kyle and Alyssa time. It was pure sweetness, straight out of the honey jar. Hundreds of pictures later we were finally home....his home. It felt strange leaving him there, and flying back to California without him.

(he tracked my flight the whole way...aw)

Almost 8 months...That's how long we have been here in this little house...In this small little town. Yep, I made the move. :)I couldn't be without seeing his sweet face everyday, knowing it was an option. It was the easiest decision I've ever made, and one of the best.

Prepare for complaining in 3...2.....1...

Life has taken over. Recently everything feels like it's out of control and I never thought I'd miss him being in the Marines, but sometimes I do. Life felt less complicated. I've had a harder time making friends here than I thought I would. I've never had a problem making friends, so I figured it'd be easy. I was wrong....big-time. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I grew up in Southern California. The Midwest is a different culture compared to home. Not bad, just different. Sometimes I feel guilty, because I feel like Kyle doesn't go out much with his buddies strictly because he knows I don't have the "girls night" option anymore. I wish I did. I love him for that. It's also been frustrating starting our life together, where everything is his. His friends. His family. His old schools. His old hangouts....you get the picture. Some of his friends weren't very accepting of me being here either...The female ones that is. That was to be expected, and it is what it is. I'm not here for them. :)

I know he's wishing we could start over somewhere new. His friendships are different now. After 4 and a half years of his life being dedicated to the Marines, he was so excited to be with his friends and family, and to have his old life back. I think in his head he pictured it being the way it was when he would go and visit on leave. I think that's the problem....nothing has changed. All of his friends are the same, and he is different. He and his MC buddies talk daily....they all miss each other. I wish I could find them all jobs and plop them in the same spot so they could feel normal again. Several of them have told me they don't feel like they have a place anymore. They shouldn't feel that way, but I know it's part of the "getting out" process. We plan on moving as soon as we finally get set with jobs and have enough money saved to do the move without going broke....whenever we do that, his friend has thrown out the idea of moving to the same city. I hope that happens, because I think it would make things a lot easier for them both. It will make me happy to see him happy. I want him to feel like he has a place again.

I miss California. I don't call it home anymore, because I've learned there is truth to that song by Lady Antebellum. Home is where the heart is. My heart is with him. If I could move my family, friends, malls, and favorite restaurants here- THEN life would be even more perfect. OH my gosh, i can't even tell you how much I miss my malls. LOL I say it like they're owned by me...

aaaaaand END of complaining. :) lol

He's been amazing. He always has been. It's such a comforting feeling knowing I have this man in my life, and he will be by my side for the rest of our forever, however long God wants that to be. I can't wait for the day we can say our I Do's, and the day we buy our first home, and the day we have our babies. Gosh, I don't think I could love another the way I love him. He's been my best friend since day 1. I keep teasing him about popping the question...poor guy. haha! No pressure right?

This post is a mile long, but after deleting all of my old posts...I think it's time for a clean slate. I need a hobby. This is going to be my hobby. :)

xoxo

-Alyssa